walking zombie on the loose.

i kinda smuggled this out of level 5 on wednesday. HAHA. shh, its SUPPOSED to be a secret. i guess my partner in crime is ALISON. haha. well, her 'smuggled' stuff is pretty. HAHA. this fan is cool cos its wrapper had the chinese translation for 'fan' on it. i was fascinated by it? HAHA. the chinese characters were huge and in purple. HAHA.

i think the best when i'm walking. maybe its because when my body is not not moving so my brain cells can be stimulated? HAHA. what nonsense theory. haha. walking can sort things out clearly. its good. i needed that these days. sighs. its gonna be a long day tmr. comt ppt in the morning, what a great way to start the day. then its duty and then, off to sally's house.

I wonder if you'd realized,
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes..

currentlyinTUTORIAL.

LOL. im blogging in cell bio tutorial. HAHA. shh. he doesn't know. haha. the quiz was erm, okay? sally's big toe is full of muscles, totally pro during the quiz. HAHA. a load off my back. PHEW. another BOO: there is comt ppt tmr and WE HAVEN'T STARTED YET. wish me good luck for it. omg. sianness.

current mood: in a dilemma

Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky..

WTH.

SIAN. i haven't even started on cell bio la! and the test is in the morning! 9am! WTH. cant stand it. i dont think i'll have the energy or the will to revise tonight. should i go tmr at 8am to study? hmm. will i even be able to focus and study? sighs. i need like a 24/7 motor to MAKE ME study and do my hw on time. damn it. heehee, my plan B for tmr is to sit next to ppl that have alr studied. ANYONE? haiyo. i think all the ppl i know or talked to haven't studied yet. sighs.. NO HOPE LE. *sobs* how?? i need plan C. i can't think right now. ARGGGHHH. *HELP*

i admit, i lied today. its better if i did. but lying is WRONG. however, sometimes, being wrong can always be the right choice...will it?

i'll never take down the facade that covers my real emotions. is showing them what i really feel or think okay? will it be alright to let down my guard for once? too dangerous a risk. i have learnt to protect what i think is vulnerable. maybe i should learn to open up more.. its not fair if they give and all i do is receive. it wouldn't work out.

i don't trust myself with that. afraid is the word. but how can someone not be in my situation?

I've been waiting for a chance to let you in..

DONOTDISTURB.

currently completing my bstats hw. -.-'' SIAN. doing hw on cny second day. sighs.. *HELP* tutorial 9 due on thursday. damn it. goal: sleep early tonight. i've been sleeping at 2am for the past nights. *shakes head* its bad for health..
current mood: bored and tired. (if only i could sleep for 24 more hours)

love's simple yet complicated, an unsolved mystery.

crap. my stomach's hungry. AGAIN.
...
but i'm lazy to get smth to eat. damn it.

life's the best with just your girlfriends and nothing more than that.
but when the feeling comes, there is no way to avoid it.
just have to face it.

thoughts

can you control how you want to feel? just because you want it to be perfect? can you keep to the decision that will contradict your heart? because, after awhile you will see that you can deceive everyone else except you yourself. but sometimes, it is only right to make such decisions.
don't want to be blinded, but there isn't anyone to lead you onto the right path.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:

the100thPOST

i'm officially a rabbit/cow/herbivore right now, only that i eat cooked veges. my mum prepared SO MUCH vege for reunion dinner just now. i think i had too much. my stomach's bloated with soup and dang ou, the only vegetable on the dinner table. vegetables will help me poop too!! HAHA.

everyone sees sincerity differently. when others cant see it, you can because it can only be felt through the heart of the receiver. sometimes, small acts can bring out the deepest sincerity. its how you perceives things. it can only melt the coldest heart that ever existed on the planet. there isn't any way to measure it. one may feel it while others don't even through the same act or words said. sincerity can't be described in words. tears will flow due to that overwhelming feeling that can't be bought or experienced by another person. will i?

i want a plastic heart that wont hurt anymore.

here i am, in my small little cosy bedroom, putting on new bedsheet for my comfy supersingle bed and hanging up new day curtains for my room. i'm physically tired, but i dont know why i dont want to sleep yet. even though my eyes hurt. its late.

am i suppose to know it at this moment?

springCLEAN

EXTREMELY TIRING. spring cleaning is tiring. i slept for 10hours! but i still feel sleepy after all that 'exercise'. imagine all the calories i've lost today. tiring but worth it though. HAHA. and i haven't iron my cny clothes yet! omg. left tmr to finish all the chores.
damn it! next week is not holiday at all. bstats tutorial 9 due plus cell bio quiz on THREE chapters. INSANE!!!! wth. when will i be able to find the mood to do it? i need to be in the right mood to do hw. arghh. annoying lecturers. whatever. i cant be bothered anymore. *pissed* can it get worse than this?

is there suppose to be a hidden underlying meaning?
but i cant figure it out, tell me.

we invented a new 'game'. its called '3-choose-1'. hahhaha. very exciting when you are given 3 choices but can only choose one. it can kill time when you're on the bus with friends..
btw, this game is copy-righted. owned by alison, julianty and me. HAHA.

imHUNGRY.

i'm feeling hungry now): maybe cos i didn't finish my dinner? i had mushroom ramen. arrh. i hate the hungry feeling at night. it feels annoying. damn it.
CNY! the atmosphere in singapore is a little not on the excited side. but, cny = more sleep. which is good. i need that, a lot. i am a walking zombie for the past week. my eyes are still hanging in there. which is good. i realised my recent posts are more of a complain that an update. thats not good right? sighs.i need some corner for my complaints every now and then.
my stomach is growling. but i'm too lazy to go grab smth from the kitchen. my legs dont feel like moving right now. HAHA. whatever..

my mind's preoccupied with something these days.
am i just 'blind' to everything? should i be? hai.

sleepified.

I SURVIVED THIS WEEK! AMAZING.
but i dont want to talk about the tests though. too lazy to go through the details. BUT, if you want to know, can ask me. HAHAHA.
why am i tired every morning? even when i sleep at 1015, i still cant get my eyes to open in the morning. sighs. maybe i should try sleeping at 9PM. that might help, right? but i cant sleep at that time... i have stuff to do and CNY's coming. so i have much more stuff to complete. i still have A LOT to prepare for CNY, but i'm too tired and lazy to do them.. sighs. i think i need to go for some eye massage thingy.. my eyes hurt..):

damn it. i haven even started my cell bio practical qns!! my brain couldnt do any homework tonight. i guess i'll have to go early to school tmr and complete the dreadful hw assignment. ARGH. and i'll be doing hw alone. how sad is that? going to school early to do hw is sad enough. BUT going to school early to do hw alone is worse. there isnt anyone to go through the torture with you. haii. and i'm suppose to be in dream-land now but i'm not. hai.
good night!

things should be simple. the simpler, the better.
but why doesn't it seem that way??

MIRACLEneeded

wish me good luck for my three tests tmr. networking test is OMG. i am really in need of a miracle tmr, to feed me with correct answers without having me to think. let me remember all my jap words too, that the essay will be flawless and perfect. hopefully.

nights!

i guess it was a false alarm after all, which is a good thing.

CAN'T DO INFO!

CAN SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO STUDY FOR NETWORKING TEST?

p.s. INFO CAN KILL BRAIN CELLS.

I'M OFFICIALLY FREAKING OUT.

damn it. i'm not good at languages and that sucks.

there is something wrong, very wrong. but i don't know how to describe. sighs.
it WOULDN'T be an issue, would it?


i can't let my guard down, not now.

90thPOST.

as i expected, i haven't accomplished anything yet. half the day is GONE. i think i need someone to force me to study or smth like that.
sounds weird though.

i like it the way it is now. no changes.

motivation.

networking test, does anyone know where to start studying from? i haven't been paying much attention in class and i don't think anyone was anyway. it is hard to pay attention when the topic is BORINGGG. i'm mean. haha. okay, it isn't that boring la. i get to use my laptop? heehee.

RANDOM: i'm onto my fourth book part two and I LOVE IT.

actions mean more than words, huh. i need to put my words into actions. and fast. or there won't be enough time. damn it. i'd rather projects than exams. all the stress can damage your brain system and absorb all the brain juices.
so, we will be going to sally's house, alison's house and maybe julianty's house for CNY? exciting. i'll be really bored if i didn't go bai fang-ing.

i gave my second speech today. i've decided that i dont want to go through all that again next week. but there will be the group speech. comt should provide free drinks, we keep talking and talking for weeks and it is normal to get thirsty. BUT, they aren't helping. haha. doesn't matter. i bring water, in the square container. i can't rmb when's the last time i went for training. wells, it doesn't matter.

should i paint my toe nails for new year? i feel like painting them but all my new shoes are covered up so wouldn't the painted toe nails be unseen? then why waste time right? ... painting nails. HAHAHAHAHAHA. face shop memories. *shakes head* HAHAHA.
my mum insists that we must get new stuff from head to toe. traditional chinese, but i don't mind. hahahha. used to it. (:
hmm, should i study at home or outside? i don't think i'll be able to concentrate with my laptop hanging around tempting me to not study. but i think i'll be lazy to go out to study. it isn't the most interesting thing to do on a saturday. damn.. dilemma. who cares. i'll decide tmr.
p.s. it ain't good to over-work your brain, you will start lagging. thats NOT good at all. sighs.

will it be a nightmare or a happily-ever-after?

BINGO,anyone?

i need the motivation to study. right now. three tests next week, am i going to survive them? not too sure about that. well, poly's not as slack as i thought it would be. year one's not even over and i'm complaining already. but thankfully, i have my de-stress packages. haha. i'm counting on them to prevent me from freaking out. but they aren't the healthiest de-stress plans. staring at my laptop screen for two to three hours aren't helping my eyes. poor eyes..

i wasn't paying attention in cell bio lecture yesterday and this morning. bingo has been keeping me wide awake in lectures recently. mr mak was going on about genetic stuff and it is hard to keep my eyelids from shutting. so, i need distractions. and kathy suggested BINGO. i guess, most of us weren't paying attention anyway. it was mean. mr mak is nice and we weren't being nice at all. ohwells.
comt at ten tmr. i'm beginning to like comt now. since it isn't as boring as my other modules, FOR NOW.

am i thinking about what i'm not suppose to think about?
why am i waiting for something?
i need a distraction whenever i'm thinking.

MIA

MIA for almost forever. i was busy reading a book on my laptop that i was just too lazy to update. but since i have the mood now for updating, i might as well do it.
last week was insane. everything was due on the first week of school. that was stress. but i somehow manage to survive it. second week of school, but it feels like i have not had a holiday in centuries. time is passing so fast when im busy. tests and more tests coming up. not sure if i can handle all my modules. jap's my weakest but im just too lazy to do much now. no energy to keep up, i need a energy drink everyday.
CNY is coming. which is a good thing, i think. i think i've gotten all my clothes and shoes and stuff ready. but there is only 2 days off school. which sucks. hmm, open house on sat was interesting. i had my blood type checked. i'm a O+! i finally know my blood type. (: it was painful when the needle went into my right middle finger. i couldnt look at my finger when the guy was squeezing my blood out. i think i might just screaming at how much blood i am going to lose. hahha. jk. it feels like i just went through a body checkup. it was funny. and i did alot of slacking. i like stamping for others. i had a chair to sit on! haha. ya.
the crave to continue reading my book is starting to come back. so, i'll update when the mood is right! (:

falling in love with a vampire-EC