red;
is the colour of my laptop bag;
is the colour of my cushion cover;
is the colour of my red marker;
is the colour of my heart.

i dont know why but i'm stressing up again.
any suggestions on stress-relief?
i need my sleep. badly.
and i dont wanna go for anymore pracs!!!
i'm starting to dislike them.
my timetable is like the SPAM OF PRACS.
omg.
hahah.
i was exaggerating a little?
but seriously, 12 hrs of prac per week is murderous.

don't know why, but i'm kinda looking forward to this week.
even though i know it wouldnt guarantee me anything.
i need the right place, right time and right person.
magical if i could get what i want.
magic is not solid.
but, no harm wishing right?
even though wishes belong only to fairytales.


let me fall asleep into that dream again..

sally's been complaining about how dead my blog is.
hahaha.
she can really nag.
oh wells, i'm updating now.
i have common tests next week and the week after.
and i dont really like all the modules.
who wants to study? haha.
discipline!
btw, i finally kinda decided on wed that i wasn't going to go for famine camp this year.
sadded.
i would love to go.
but it wasn't meant to be.
timing clashed with exams.
i think everyone was GLAD i finally made up my mind.
i think i annoyed sally?
heehee. during dip plus.
opppps
i had to really think ma.
weigh the consequences and benefits.
conclusion: i am a fickle-minded person.
HAHAHA.
it felt as if i was choosing over a white or black top.
both colours were nice.
but which suited my skin tone the best?
hard to choose when you want both but can only pick one.
peeps that experienced shopping with me should be able to relate to this example?
hahahhaha.
GOOD NIGHT.
and SWEET DREAMS.


i've been dreaming of this someone
no wonder they say, dreams ain't reality.
but i dont mind....
really..

i know i haven't updated in a long time.
i've been kinda lazy and busy.
i have TONS of projects awaiting me.
OMG.
and they aren't the normal kind of projects..
sighs.
so busy like a beee..
i don't like bees. they sting.
HAHAHA.
oh. do go and take the quiz that i made.
on facebook.

i have no idea but i'm kinda into old songs nowadays.
don't ask me why.
okay, this is a sing i've been listening over and over again...
its a nice song.
you will fall in love with it once you hear the melody(:

Never Had A Dream Come True

by S Club 7

Everybody's got something
they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or might have been (or might have been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it should be now or might have been (or might have been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you...

so near yet so far...

low profile

i was hypnotized and mesmerized..

I'll Be
Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I've dropped out, I've burned up
I've fought my way back from the dead
I've tuned in, turned on
Remembered the things that you said

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your life


enjoy.
i'm currently listening to this song.
special thanks to fanny(:
the tune is nice. i like it.
this week has been smooth-sailing.
its only through the tough times,
you see who are true to you.
thank god for you. i am blessed.
thank god for everything, esp health.
i pray that this annoying flu will be wiped out like whatever.
HAHAHHAHA.

i am THE fan of movies(:


When you brought the sunlight...

i hope it was clear enough.

i feel lazy(:

knowing you,
i am blessed(:

i look forward to every weekend(:

SORRY.
i was really lazy the past few weeks.
PLUS, there was the AMAZING FOC that consumed most of my free time.
FOC WAS A BLAST!
INDESCRIBABLE FEELING.
hahaha.
yup. i am not in the mood to elaborate about FOC right now.
so far, after FOC i didnt have the time to rot at home
guess i have LOTS of stuff i haven't done.
the last week of the hols but i have lots of things i wanna do.
I'M SO SORRY I CAN'T COMMIT MYSELF FOR DANCE.
i don't want to screw it up.
HAII.
holidays shouldnt be this short.
complains/feedback time!!
hahaha.
yup.
so this is the BRIEF UPDATE of my life so far.
i'll try to update more often if i have the time.
lots of stuff to update about too.
so, TATA!


是你在那一个秒钟， 赶走了永久的孤寂

OMG.
didn't know it was this serious.
THREE DAYS OF MC..
so i was a pig again.
sleeping all day long.
HAHA.
went to school at 1030 for aem.
but when i reached there, i felt worse.
then mum came to pick me up.
went to visit the doctor at TP.
vomited out my breakfast while waiting for my turn
went home and slept all day.
feeling much better now after taking medication.
BUT.
i dont know if i can go for dance tmr.
mum's kinda paranoid and wants me to rest till i recover.
but, if i dont go, i wont be able to catch up.
SIGHS.
and as usual, i havent done any of my dip plus hw YET.
i kinda planned to chiong them tmr after lecture.
cos i cant think straight right now.
hmmms.
if i slept all day, will i be able to sleep tonight?
too much sleep is not good either.
I CAN BE AN OWL for now.
AHAHHA.


don't ask me questions that i don't have an answer to.

did nothing but sleep all day.
head was aching in the day.
tonsils hurt when i woke up.
felt feverish whenever i woke up from my naps.
guess i became a pig overnight.
bathed in EXTREMELY COLD water in the evening.
feeling better now.
RANDOM FACT: I HAD MEE SUA FOR LUNCH(:
but i was not in the mood to enjoy it.
hmms.
been kinda busy the last week.
dance, games com stuff and etc.
FOC's coming soon.
it will get busier.
must get more REST.
and i realised that i haven't done my dip plus assignment and hw):
i'm kinda looking forward to tmr's training, surprisingly.
HOPEFULLY, the training will be like last week's.


i won't fall for it.

AGL TRAINING IS FUN. i like it(:
even though i dont really go for trainings.
i can say that AGL TRAINING is BETTER and MORE FUN?
hahahha.
thats my personal opinion.
it feels more like a 'family'.
we laugh together and have fun together.
LOADS OF FUN.
even PT is more enjoyable although i fall out a few times.
hahahah.
PT's unique.
UNIQUE is the word(:
different from the usual kind.
i think others feel the same about TODAY'S training.
AGLs are nice. BETTER.
i may not know them well.
but they are FRIENDLY AND FUNNY.
first impressions are important(:
thats why they are AGL.
one year older means ALOT, huh..

no more being shouted at.
no more having to tolerate HEI faces.
no more complains after training.
no more regretting to go for trainings.
no more having to dread weds.
no more disgusting dirty eww games. yay!
no more having to find excuse not to go.
no more SIAN-ness.
no more.
for a few more weeks ):
i want AGL TRAINING to not stop after FOC.
those who agree, BREATHE!!!
HAHAHHAHA.

OMG.
i'm kinda looking forward to next week's AGL training.
BUT.
i have AEM ):
sighs.

my body's aching.
i'm tired but I HAD FUN.
we are going to the mushroom farm tmr!
yipee!
i have never been there.
kinda excited because i love mushrooms.
HAHAH.
but i'm in a dilemma now.
should i go at 9am or 1pm?
hmmm.
i hate dilemmas.
i'm always in them.
ARRRGGHHH...


i know its not the right path.
but........

MY HAIR IS EXTREMELY SHORT.
why?
because my mum made me cut.
SOBS.
whatever.
i think its time for a new hairstyle too.
even though its short.
RANDOM FACT: I WENT FOR JAP BUFFET! bloated.
i had to stuff everything into my stomach in one hour.
OMG.
i almost couldnt walk after that.
but the food is GOOD.
me like!
i think i ate like 1/10 of a salmon fish.
HAHAHA.
i drank 3 cups of EARL GREY TEA.
it was SHIOK.
HAHAHA.
i think i put on 10000kg la.
SIGHS.
and i am feeling hungry now.
stomach's growling so early..
i have to go back to school for the AEM thingy.
SIAN!
nvm. and i have to pay my jap fees too!!
omg. i am not allowed to forget abt it again.

MY HAIR!!!!!!!
i think i have to wait another year for it to grow to that length.
haiyoo..
i realised it is SUPER SHORT.
no wonder it felt WEIRD washing my hair just now.
the length is GONE!
i'll live.


一切的美好停在我的手錶

WOAH.
it has been quite a week.
and i SURVIVE!
trial camp took up the first half of this week.
OMG.
i can't believe i went through FOC again.
OMG.
personally, i don't think i had good memories of FOC.
whatever.
this time, i played ALL the dirty and eww games.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I PLAYED THEM.
it wasn't me that went to trial camp then.
ohwells.
thank goodness its only TWO DAYS.
PHEW.
RANDOM FACT: I AM IN GAMES COM. yay!
at least i am not a WELFARE GL.
omg.
good luck to all the welfare gls.
HAHAHHAHA.
and this hols, like i said before, is going to be INSANELY BUSY.
i signed up for many activities.
Asian Games Volunteer, AEM, FOC, Dip Plus and etc.
OMG.
not even sure if i have enough time for everything.
if only i have A SPELL THAT CAN PRODUCE MANY JANNAHS.
that will solve the problem.
haii.
phew there is no dip plus for the next two weeks.
BUT.
THERE IS DIP PLUS HW.
WTH.
I HATE HW!
RANDOM FACT: I WANTED TO EAT MEE SUA. but i didn't):
i dont think i will have any spare time for anything.
SIGHS.
but i'm kinda glad i have something to do during hols.
at least i won't be rotting away at home, doing nothing.
thats a good thing, RIGHT?


thank GOD for everything(:

IT WAS A BLAST TODAY!
HAHAHHAH.
we sang FOUR HOURS of songs non-stop!
SHIOK.
but my throat feels rough now..
OPPS.
we shall continue after trial camp.
and my nose is ANNOYING ME.
it has LIMITLESS mucus to pour out.
thanks to the pouring rain and freezing temp when singing
DAMN IT.
RANDOM FACT: I HAD SUSHI FOR LUNCH! wow!
i think i'll have to sleep early
so as to prevent myself from feeling sicker.
SHIT.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WEATHER??


i am so not in the mood for camp right now.

I HAVE COMPLETED DIP PLUS HW!!
yay!
and now. i can draw phenanthrene very well.
another point: i think i can confuse myself very well.
i am EXTREMELY very confused about resonance structures.
OMG.
those thingys can give you MASSIVE HEADACHES.
RANDOM FACT: I HAD BEEF PEPPER RICE TODAY!! shiok!
i think my random sore throat has become a cough.
DAMN IT.
SIGHS.
trial camp on tuesday. NO COMMENTS.
haiiiii.
RANDOM FACT: my wound is starting to itch.
and i hate it when i can't do anything about it!!!!
ARRRGGGHHH.


有时我不愿回头看, 一路太多眼泪混乱..

FRIDAY!
i just woke up not too long ago, although i slept early last night.
throat's still hurting.
maybe i need to drink herbal liang cha?
the taste isn't that bad...
DAMN IT.
SIGHS
BUT...
i'm gonna catch He's Just Not That Into You later.
WOOOHOOOO
EXCITING!
HAHAHA.
finally there is someone who hasn't watched it yet.
and there is STUDENT PRICE!!
$6 only! i like that no.
as for dinner, its cheap cheap too.
99cents sushi sounds money-saving to me.
HAHAHA.
i need to go BUDGET now.
i'm broke ):
ohwells.
looks like this holidays will be kinda packed with programs.
i've been out everyday since hols started.
oooo.
HAHAHAHAHA.


A smile is nearly always inspired by another smile.

i feel sick.
i have a sore throat.
i feel lazy.
i heard smth.
i want to watch movies.
i want to sleep.
i miss my bed.
i don't want only 2 plays per day.
i want to shop.
i need money.
i like to stone.
i want to gossip.
i love tea.
i watch tv.
i am tired.


i don't want to fall too deep,
that i can't pull myself back up.

I CAN RIDE A BICYCLE! haha.
i learned that skill last night with ah cai.
chou mi and alison were my shifu(:
arigato!
it was hard at first.
balancing wasn't easier.
what made it worse was that the seat was FREAKING SMALL.
my butt still hurts.
SHIT.
oh. and i fell down a few times.
HAHAHAHA.
and i got some injuries on my legs.
OUCH.
it didn't hurt that bad ytd.
but, after coming home today it became worse.
but staying in one position for a long time helps a little.
guess my brain sends the pain signal a little slower than usual?
HAHHAHA.
oh wells. it was a good experience falling down anyway.
i had to fall down once so it was ytd.

SLEEP-DEPRIVED.
after lunch, i slept till 5PM.
0.0
i dont usually take afternoon naps.
but today was an exception.
and the bus ride home was GOOD.
i slept in the 'alison' style all the way to bishan.
SHIOK!

OHHH.
i saw some 'AHEMS' ytd while cycling.
HAHAHHA.
it was amusing when i saw them so near me.
WOAH.
you could see the fake assets clearly without engaging their service.
HAHAHAHHA.
a little disgusted by them.
eww.

TMR IS THE FOURTH OF MARCH! (:
i'll be there(:


it is hard to decide..