SHOPPING!

went to JB!!! bought like a million things? haha. i got a new black bag from mango, new silver satin shoes, 2 new tank tops from FOS and a new black shorts from FOS! haha. oh, i forgot the new black satin earrings. haha. we had local dishes for lunch and SEAFOOD for dinner! my FAV! HAHA. black pepper crab, chilli crab, crayfish and kang kong with cuttlefish!! i must have put on like 5 kg? omg.. have to go on hunger strike for the next seven days. hahah. left singapore at 12? came back at around 10 plus. haha. one day gone like that. im in early holiday mood. and when's common test? next next week. haha. nvm, today's for destress.
SORRY guys, had to cancel the winx movie last minute. haha. watch tmr ba. haha. when im in singapore. (:

It's better have eyes that cannot see;
ears that cannot hear;
lips that cannot speak;
than a heart that cannot love.

FIRDAY!

here i am, sitting at the lift lobby area at blk 56 studying jap characters for my spelling on tuesday. ta chi tsu te to na ni nu ne no ha hi fu he ho. im still in the process of memorizing them. sighs. there's good news and bad news for jap. good news: i will be able to get my diploma plus in jap.bad news: i have to sit for some replacement test to see if i can pass the 102 module. omg! 102 is like wth? sobs.. and i want to get my diploma plus. sighs.. too bad i dont have jap genes in my DNA..
the good news for today is that there isnt IAC. that seems like the best thing that has happen this week besides knowing that i will be able to get my diploma plus. argh. and its friday! yay. tmr will be destressing day for me. hahah.

so near, but yet so far.

pissed.

seriously, i cant stand people talking bad about others behind their back. like, if they have any issues with whoever, just be brave and tell the person. not be a coward and say SO much when the person's not around. if you can say it out, then just have a little more courage to tell the person. dont be a mouse. and it reflects so bad on you when that person finds out. dont try to deny or push the blame away from you. it is even worse when you are a guy saying all the wth things abt ppl. if you are NOT happy with anything or ME, then just say it out in my face. that will be so much better. and if you think its unfair, then say so la! dont give a black face and a sucky attitude to everyone else. wth. just say and i will quit la. dont be an asshole. I HATE THAT KIND OF PEOPLE.

and whats with the world man. step on someone's toes and just pretend like you dont have any feeling and carry on talking like an asshole. come on la. where are the manners? they are seriously getting on my nerves. thank god i was in a all-girls school for 10 years. im so grateful. omg. all the morons in my school. damn it.

sometimes when reality hits you, its hard not to get hurt.

MONDAYblues.

woke up super ultra early today, for cell bio project that is due tmr. so many things are happening on tuesday. so busy. and there's a final rehearsal tonight for tmr. im prepared to stay late. not enough sleep is no good either. common tests are coming straight up! damn it. im not prepared for them yet. have to start preparing. no point saying and saying when no action is being done. i need self-discipline and motivation to study.. HELP!

i don't want to walk out of my perfect illusion.

FINALLY!

omg, the week has FINALLY passed. i dreaded this week so much! three tests in 4 days. its not that i cant deal with the stress level, but i just dont like it. too much stress can produce pimples, ugly ones that randomly pop out everywhere. but i guess the tests are erm, not too bad. even though some were a little screwed up. but nvm, it is history and its time to move on with life. thats a phrase to encourage someone.. tmr's friday! (* you guys should know why by now..*) but, i'll be busy in school. staying over in NP. hmm, dont know if it is the right choice to stay over. arghh..
jap hiragana test on tuesday and i dont know the characters by hard. sobs.. and i need to do super well this time since the speaking test was ... sighs.. time is passing too fast for me now. so fast that i am not used to it. sighs. my adaptation skills are a little slow this time. oh wells, tmr is slack day for me cos i have finished my IAC ppt! horrayy.. haha.. ganbatte for those who havent!

why did you appear in my mind when she said that?

tooMANYthings,tooLITTLEtime.

im surprised i could find time to update in the midst of my bumble-bee time. ultra stressed. there's info and jap speaking test tmr! damn it.
hmm, i think im ready for jap, i'll need last min practise though. renwei! my shifu for jap! hahaha.. at least i can write the first few words in the hiragana chart without looking on friday. but, im not sure if i can still rmb them hahaha.
as for info, im not too sure if i am READY for it. NEW DECLARATION: I'M A NOOB IN EXCEL TOO! but i cant help it. i have NO interest in these kind of things, that have to do with the com. i need a million buckets of good luck for tmr. nvm, i'll just have to take things as they come. well, thats the only way for me now! omg!! why must we have info as one of our modules? doesnt LSCT stands for life science and chemical tech? there isnt any excel written on those words! *pissed*
and the performance date is nearing each day. and i haven gone for dance for a long time! haha. i was supposed to be there at 6pm. but i seriously couldnt make it. heehee. where is that sense of belonging? i dont feel it anymore. i still haven decide whether anot to stay over on friday. im a fickle person in many things, including this. i'll decide when the day comes.
right now, its time for me to brush my teeth and go to bed. i need enough sleep for tmr. omg.. I REALLY DISLIKE INFO. ARRGGHH.. *HELP*

nothing's ever impossible, cause the world's one big stage.

UPDATED!!

(updated for sally)
rushing all my work these few days, so busy until i forgot to update. (sally had to remind me) haha. i have a secret. which i cant say. haha. thats why its called a secret. i got 2 new shoes over the weekend. mum got it for me. so sweet. they are from crocs warehouse sale? up to 80% leh.. super cheap! haha. 20 bucks each. i was like damn it. should grab all on the first day with my mum. my mum is my shifu for sale-grabbing techniques. hahah. the shoes' colours are a little hard to match though. i guess i have to buy clothes that can match my new shoes! yay! one reason to shop, but im broke. sighs. why cant money fall from the sky? ohwells, back to hw-ing. bstats. arrghh.



ps, does anyone have 路 by fish leong? i like that song. heehee.

或许我不能, 把爱看清楚...

busified.

busy the whole entire day. omg, can time just slow down for a day? i need 24hours to catch up on everything!! omg, the pace of life is just moving too fast for me to even take a breath.
anyways, my ex-chinese tuition teacher bought this bag for me! isnt she sweet? haha. didnt expect it, but its a nice bag. i've used it once like on tuesday for jap class and it is really chic and cute!! haha. i love black too.

我想要的那片天空, 你是不是能夠給我?

elearning.

im stuck at home doing elearning for bstats and cell biology. i dont understand bstats. question marks appeared when i was reading the first few lines of chapter 6. seriously, what is going on in chapter 6? i need someone to explain to me! omg, stressed. next week is killer week, 2 tests coming up. bstats and jap-speaking test. omg, i missed 1 lesson of jap last week and i was lost this week. and the writing test is in 2 weeks time. omg. need to memorise all the hiragana words? i think so. damn it. and im behind time for bstats tutorial! so im chionging them right now. there are like a million qns from the textbook i have to do. wth. wish me good luck. i need it badly.

Then I would thank that star, that made my wish come true..

survey,anyone?

all the kind souls on earth please help me complete the surveys listed below. thanks a million! muacks for all those who are nice! haha..

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=4Bgnj9mXRk2VPiKiMAKTtA_3d_3d

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=CRn78NiP4uv2usfpijCDdA_3d_3d

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you.

omg. i dont know if i made the right decision ytd. haha. no la. i missed out on a super good sale at club21! the prices were slashed by like A LOT. and i wasnt present when my mum went there ytd night! arrhh.. but, i had a great time at somewhere too, mahjong all the way! even though i left really early. sighs. i still wanted to play mahjong. haiya. its all HIS fault la. today's lecture at 9am! super ultra tired in the morning.
when i was showering just now, i realised that i have other names that i respond to. and i dont know why. for example: white rice, 白米, 女儿, mahjong noob? wth. and i respond to all of them? hmm. not so sure. 本小姐's name is JANNAH. haha. hmm, what movies are there in the cinema that are worth my money? hmm. cant find anything.

我想要的那片天空, 你是不是能夠給我..

dancingFOREVER.

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.
...

inGRIEVE.

not enough time to sleep. no time for hw. when you realise that one of your loved ones is gone forever, it may need time for the fact to settle in. but there are no tears, and i dont know why. sighs. going to be real busy this few weeks.
elearning next week, but i have to come to school for organic chem. sian! dance practice is on again. havent had the time to attend anything.

no mood, no sleep, no energy.

workingmyASSoff.

here i am at NP library doing our cell biology project about cancer. there's no one in school, i'm not really used to it. haha. school's like always packed with lots of ppl. so sian. cant find anything on our project. stressed. no mood to do anything right now. sighs.


thats our work place at the library(:

Nothing's ever impossible, cause the world's one big stage.

waiting.

its really early in the morning. omgosh. here i am waiting for alison and kathy. *pissed* they were supposed to be here at 9am to discuss the survey questions for IAC. but as expected, everyone's late. damn it. im here sitting and waiting for the 2 wulusai people to come and i dont think there will be time for us to even discuss the questions. isnt IAC important too? i want to score well and im making the effort to come on time for group meetings and do my part in the project. am i the only one who's really concern about IAC? and the stupid mosquitoes are bitting me. im on time, but i get punished for that? whats the world becoming? im starting to get frustrated with school right now. all the insane projects and never ending hw piling up each day. on day, im going to explode. like a volcano that can erupt any moment. i admit that im not always early or on time. but, at least i try to be on time. my mood's affected alr. and i hate the itchy-ness on my legs. why am i coming so early when i can sleep in later? my class only starts at 10am, but im awake at 6.45am. who isnt tired? who wont want to sleep for a longer time? you arent the only one who can be tired. im human too, not a robot. maybe my temper isnt good but try being in my shoes now. how would you feel? im sitting here, doing useless stuff, waiting for whoever that is supposed to be here. whats the point of coming on time when everyone else is late?

pissed and annoyed.

lunchBREAK

just had my lunch like a few minutes ago. the queue was freaking long. omg. peak hours are wulusai! anyways, there's still one more hour before my next lesson which is the annoying bstats tutorial. cant stand bstats. i dont understand loh. and when i dont understand, i get annoyed. then i'll be pissed why i cant understand. sighs. school.. i can go on complaining about annoying stuff, i have an infinite list.
happy for alison! haha. i think in no time, she's going to be attached? haha. now she's single BUT unavailable as sally said. haha. the progress is really improving at a fast speed. haha..
drats. i havent been exercising lately which is no good. the mood to exercise is always so short. i wanna go swimming but i dont have the time to. and school is passing too fast. it feels like school has just started. but 3 weeks has passed alr, in a flash! omgosh. nvm. my life's packed with too much stuff right now. arrrrhh..
damn it! the school has blocked viwawa? haiyo. i cant get into the webpage. sian. its my stress relief in school. ):
and sally's really into HSM3 songs right now. but the funny thing is that she only knows 1 line from each song. haha. she has been singing them since morning. and i was sitting next to her. my ears!! haha. i still prefer HSM1's ost. the songs are more catchy and easy to learn the lyrics. haha. they bring back memories in pankgor trip. haha. we were singing 'Breaking Free' in the middle of the night. haha. fanny, aimin and melica were quite 'fan' with our singing. haha. but that time, we were really high. kept singing until no voice loh. haha.

Then I would thank that star, that made my wish come true.

STRESSED.

heehee. didnt go for cca today cos didnt have the mood to go at the last minute. oops! haha. julianty couldnt make it in the last minute too cos of some erm, personal reason? hmm. kathy was kinda 'pissed' cos i think she was excited for cca? hmm. thats a weird reason to get excited. anyways, i didnt waste my evening away. i went to catch HSM3 at cine. hmm, the movie was not bad. the plot was unexpected, the music was good. but to me, i felt that the 'senior year musical' was kinda messy, like rojak. haha. no offence, i was quite confused. nvm. i guess the producers were trying to give everyone a fair chance in front of the camera. dont know why, but i prefer painted skin and red cliff to HSM3. haha. you should know why. heehee.
just reached home. my bag was killing me! freaking heavy. damn it. going to sleep early tonight, lack of sleep isnt really good.
omg. i think this is the 10000th time i've said that this sem is insane! the modules are heavy and i dont like a single one of them except for organic chemistry. i love chem. thats not the point but, OC is the only module i look forward in the school term. thats really sad. out of 6 modules, i only like 1. ohwells. thats school right? thats the norm. students not liking most of their subjects and no one knows the reason why. haha..

if i told you,
i want to learn how to love all over again,
will you teach me how to?

stressed.

just came back from jap lesson. i learned how to say annoying in jap. haha. because, julianty was being really annoying then. haha. it is pronounced wu lu sai. haha. she said i sounded weird. hmm. maybe i was unfamiliar with the language. we learned how to translate time and days into jap. really complicated, but fun. there was dance just now, but i couldnt make it, sorry.
damn it. tmr school is starting an hour earlier, because we have to make up our bstats lecture that was on monday. wa lau, so suay. nvm. i ren. haha. its wed tmr so means there's cca. and here comes the bad part, i think there's going to be dirty games. sian. i hate them. i rather anything then that. its so ma fun to clean up la. nvm. i ren.
here's one thing to be glad, i think we are going to catch a movie on thursday? hmm. im really busy this sem. super wu lu sai la. (sounds like a bad word here. but ohwells.) no time for hw or revising. arhhhhh..
it seems like all the nice movies are coming out during the same period. hmm. so sian! i didnt win a single round of wahjong just now when playing with renwei, irfan and daryl. damn it. i have to brush up my skill fast. i am always so close to winning. but! its always either i dont have a tai or my winning tile is taken by some wu lu sai ppl. *pissed* but, i won a round ytd against irfan, thats called skill with good technique. but i didnt win any round against renwei, because he didnt want to feed me. he kept feeding others except me! wth. nvm. i ren, again. *taking deep breaths*
one more annoying thing is that nowadays i dont have time to watch tv, which is one of my shu mi (hobby in jap)

静静的把那拥抱变成永远.

THANKyou.

i hereby thank sally, the person who donated songs to me just now. heehee. thank you! i love the songs. (:
anyways, i just had my dinner, chao kuai teow. haha. dont know if i spelled it correctly. super full! the portion was like HUGE! i think the stall owner was really generous. haha. aww.. i wanna watch a drama, but i couldnt find the chinese version of it. war and beauty. i searched on youtube but they only have it in the HK language. i seriously dont understand it even with chinese subs. im a noob in chinese. sally says i sound weird speaking chinese, is it that bad? hmm. after all, i am a chinese. i should be able to communicate in my language.
ohwells, i cant find the drama that i wanna watch. sian! i like that kind of show: the era, the costumes, the architecture, etc. i just like the ancient past. my fave! all of the things from the ancient world amaze me. i dont know why but i'm really into history, like the customs , clothes and wu kung. the way they fly here and there really fascinates me. haha. sometimes i will day-dream how nice it would be if i was highly skilled. then i wouldnt have to worry about being late cos i can fly! haha. i know, my day-dreams are really day-dreams. they are the impossibles. but there is no harm day-dreaming for awhile. right? heehee.

what you said really had me thinking. how should i reply?

trueYOU.

stayed at home the whole day today. not going anywhere later. i guess i'll be home alone again, some free time to slack. just finished watching 200 pounds of beauty. it is a nice and meaningful show. it was really moving. i have to admit, its a good movie. it got me thinking..
is outer beauty that important? or is what's inside that will shine through? plastic surgery. will changing your looks change you as a person? then if that's the case, it isnt worth it. everyone will become ugly one day, thats a fact that cant be changed.

旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬.