tired from four tests this week. need to take a break before studying again. we arent robots, we cant last a month without a break. haii. i feel like skipping school tmr and sleep until the sun shines on my buttocks. but i cant. group games meeting is tmr..
and surprisingly, we managed to get loft units during study week! how cool is that? heard it was full but yay! but i dont know if i'm staying over. i have a feeling that i wont be able to study to the max there. HAHA. for the next week, i'll be chanting 2.1 module content 24/7. i have to. there is too much info to cramp into the small space in my brain. sobs. exam sorrows setting in..
ARRRGGGHHH...


that promise was never fulfilled because of me...

YAHHOO!

we have completed immuno class project on friday afternoon! YES. finally its over. BUT, now comes the sucky part where we have to hand in the report. SIGHS. at least we are halfway through.

another yahhoo thing: wikis ppt is completed! it only lacks pics which alison, THE BIRTHDAY GIRL IS CHOSEN TO DO. HAHAH.

oh. and last wed.. hmm. campus run was as usual, fast. taking care of baggiess are boring ): nvm. but it was so freaky and scary with H1N1 on the rise in s'pore. one of the gls had HIGH FEVER. i kinda freaked out. thinking back, i shouldnt have.

i mean, if you're meant to die from some flu virus then no matter how you avoid and run from it, it will still get to you one way or another. yup. everyone has a destined life that already has its route and duration on earth.

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALISON!


a glimpse of you can somehow brighten my worst day at school where tests and projects are just overwhelming me. but at the same time, that glimpse pierces like a reality needle. you know your chances and that alone is like your own personal thunderstorm.

remind me to do full stretching before campus run. i couldnt get out of bed on thursday and had troubles moving around the house with the ached-legs.

my shoulders were also aching, must have been rusty since FOC's cleaning up. HAHA.

but i like cleaning up. its fun, when everyone comes together and srcub the pails, wash the floor, break the brush-boom? HAHA. it was hilarious, seriously. and then all the packing and moving of log.

OVERALL, tired but worth it.


the passion in your eyes...

all of a sudden, i'm feeling tired. the lack of sleep is finally getting to me. i know i have to sleep early, but there are just so many things to complete.

SIGHS. i need to apply leave from school. soon.

tmr's gonna be a long long day. and no more bananas for me before training. i have enough of bananas. eww!


When i was too tired and couldnt go on anymore...
;You lift my feet off the ground

those memories and emotions are still so clear in my mind. it was just like ytd that i met you. but somehow, all of us had move on with our different lives and i had let you pass by.

looking back, i should have done something more. but all i needed was a little courage. it was courage that cost me something so valuable.

how different would it have been if i turned right instead of left? would things be different, better? sometimes, i cant help but imagine the other future that was rightfully mine. sighs.

i'll never forget. them.
thank you for being part of my memories...

0.0
according to my dad, you need to poop THREE times a day for frequent bowel movement. and the poop has to look normal. my goodness. he read it off some paper he printed.
does anyone poop 3x a day? my record so far is 2x a day. felt super light after pooping all the waste out. how heavy is poop? maybe next time when i decide to weigh myself, i should poop everything out first.
but if you poop 3x, means you need enough waste for a triple shit session. so before you start your shitting spree, your whole large intestines must be so contaminated with bacteria!!!
HAHHA. but pooping is good, it removes all the eeek! stuff in your body.
maybe taking more fruits and vegs can motivate our poo to poop out? haha. thats kindergarten explanation, well for me.

i continued reading this 'healthy' paper and it also said, when bathing hor. flush yourself with hot water for 3 mins then cold water for 30 secs.
its supposedly good for the immune system and smth else. its just basically good for us?
i tried following this instruction for a few days. but i felt the same. maybe its for the long term.


But you came along and you changed everything

HAHA. sometimes its really funny how easy ppl get angry over tiny matters. is being right always right? insisting in your own stupid little dumb ways? getting amused by sadistic events? my goodness...

tmr is THE day. julianty jiayou!! i think i never will want to be in her shoes, but that day is nearing. DAMNS. looks like all the deadlines for the mountainous projects are due in the coming 2 weeks. if you see pimples popping out on my face, dont ask why. its the environmental factors that are contributing to physical changes in my appearance. **too much dbg**

OHOH!! i cut my hair.. its super extremely short for now. but this length is good, not too long and not too short. i think i'll look awful in short short hair and long long hair isnt my optimal length? yup.
the memories of primary school were disfigured by my horrendous haircut in primary 3. DONT REMIND ME. it was the worst mistake that i ever made regarding my hairstyle. i'll never ever allow my hair length to be above my shoulders. NEVER!!!!!!


you made me realise how empty this world is without you...

random: did i mention i ATE A BANANA on wed before training? ya. i did. i almost puked out the whole entire banana when it was being digested in my stomach. eeek!
RC isn't fun anymore, once you reach a certain level you can't upgrade anymore): there isn't any motivation for me to play RC anymore. HAHAH. so now, FB is going to be extinct in my internet history.
today was great. got so many stuff that are CHEAP! thats the key word when it comes to shopping. haii. we should have stayed there longer, the duration was too short. NVMS. there will always be another time. i'm looking forward to it.
just rmbed. next training's campus run, i'm the front runner? shoots man. comparing THEIR stamina and speed, i hope i wont become the back runner at the end of campus run. haiyoo. my fitness level is -ve. *sadded* OMGGG. i can't imagine how it will be like when its my turn to be PTIs. my goodness. ****救命啊~~~*** "ONE THOUSAND!" but i never regretted..
@#%$^*&%!? WIKIS ARE THE CATALYST FOR PISSING PPL OFFF!!!! ARRRRRGGGGHHHH. I WILL NEVER EVER TOTALLY NOT TAKE CCTA FOR MY FYP! think will pek chek until you will boycott all CCTA labs for eternity!


wished you were here with me..

my goodness. this week is like a marathon for ppts. its CRAZY. my group completed 3 ppts this week. AMAZING how we haven went bogus yet. staring at my laptop for almost everyday is damaging to the eyes. and the lack of sleep does not help much. tmr's gonna be a looong day *winks* HAHA.
was just completing my game proposal. all the memories of game proposals are flooding my head. IRRK!! thank goodness the proposal is simple. phew. putting a game into words aint easy. its worse than verbal explanation. oh wells. MY GAME PROPOSAL IS DONE. finally. now, its time for wikis-chionging. dbg ppt should be considered finished. mmb is long done!!! yay. after poly, everyone with a diploma cert will be ppt pro. we can all join competitions for the fastest and nicest ppt. HAHAHHA. i think i did a little too many ppt recently. IS was fun. it was quite a different kind of lesson for me. hope it will be easy to ace it? i'll be hoping (:
why does 7 days pass so fast? its seems more like 7 hours that just passed. time wont wait for you..


my knowledge of you knowing is sufficient...

when will they ever grow up? sighs. going through this kind of stuff often is really draining. dampens ppl's mood without even considering, is self gain really that important? i'm doing it for a cause, its our responsibility now and no matter how little it benefits me, i cant complain because i gave my word in the beginning. whats the use of being envious of others when you cant do anything about it? just move on with life and live with it. where do they get the energy for silly things? haii. dont let it affect me. but one day, seriously. if you find a fist on your oh-so-pretty face, dont ask why. there's always a limit to everything and once it reaches the highest level, next will be real action.

the pic above is for the previous post. one of the many photos we took with the thermal scanner. thats me on the right. HAHA. as you all can see, we are yellow on the screen, that means we are not having a fever. any red part on the screen means fever!!! thats the job for the person in charge of the thermal scanner. its a very easy but boring job. HAHA.
i was late for dbg lecture today. HAHA. i only came for 20 mins of his lesson. SORRY DR NEVIL. i was lazy-ing in bed for 15 mins > my reason for being late.

you defined what love is...

this post shall be on my second and last week of term holidays. i did nothing but ayg volunteering at swissotel. IT WAS A BLAST! haha. made TONS of new friends and ate SO much that i think i kinda put on a few kilos. but who cares! i had so much fun that i wanna work there till ayg ends. sadly, i cant because of schoool. *sighs*
i was in access control for this whole week. it sounds chim and cool, but in actual fact its just smth like security? we had to ensure that right ppl enter the right place. i was always posted to the same place where i met lots of ppl, made friends, had supper and had fun.
friends i made there:
-germaine ;the girl from np, was my partner for my last day where we did silly things that kept us from stoning.
-rafidah ;the girl who has mixed blood, was my first few friends in ayg. thanks keeping me awake during the first few boring days.
-tong si ;the girl that LOVED twilight too! haha. we had fun at the ops center with the thermal scanner and supper!
-jivaan aka vaana ;the guy who takes a million years to finish the first book of twilight. funny guy with lame jokes!
-bert ;the guy who likes to stick the temp stickers on me. -.- kinda quiet too.
-take or teck? ;the guy who i briefed and left a minute after that to another station. he responds to take!! haha. cant rmb his exact name. opps.
-haneef ;the guy who was my team leader for the last day. he was nice, letting us have dinner in pairs so we werent be so lonely...yay!
-fit ;the serious guy who took his work seriously and is always asking qns abt this and that.
-crystal!!!!! ;the lady who was my boss for ayg. she is stressed!!
-kuan ann ;team leader for most of the days. first person i know. gave THE SWEETS to almost everyone at that shift. HAHAH. i'll never forget their faces.
-the hotel staff in charge of supper! ;they kinda knew who i was after the first night. the supper there is GOOD. i love the tea!!!
-the workforce ;the ppl who entertained us for awhile during our night shift as we were SO bored. i guessed they were stressed too. we had fun with the tea and thermal scanner.
-the aetos officers ;the ppl who helped us in our job at the ops center. they were friendly in uniform. nice ppl too!

yup! thats abt it for ayg. even though it was free labour, it was FUN. hope to see you guys for yog! should i go back tmr?

love is a strange and funny thing..

if you were never in these shoes before, you will never know how she feels like. the familiar feeling that wears her out so much, feels like quitting and giving up. the consequence of that just seem so small and insignificant, that makes it so tempting for her to just give in. but she can't blame anyone for this, she reaps what she sows. the voice in the back keeps repeating that same old phrases that pushes her on. but don't know why she is still holding on to something that perhaps doesn't need her presence. maybe it was a wrong choice in the beginning.
its tiring, its exhausting and she doesn't know if she can last to the finishing line. will her strength erode through the days?

I AM NOT ADDICTED TO RC!!! I WAS DECLARED A NOOB YTD NIGHT!
but i wonder if the test is accurate. there may be a chance that my test result screwed up? oh wells, i'll just assume that the application was working alright. speaking of RC, its kinda on one of my tabs now. HAHAHHA.
ohoh! NEW MOON is coming out soon!!! hahah. watched some clips of the fab new movie ytd. but hmmms, dont know if i'll like the movie or the book better. oh wells. I DECLARE THAT I LIKE BOTH. cant wait for it to be out. not sure if i'll watch it over and over again. muahahahaha. 6 bucks should be okay?
i don't know why i missed you by. guess i had smth else to accomplish-finding the BEST seats in SIM canteen. =.=

with hopes too high and the fall too deep..

i seriously need to get a new wallet.
my present wallet is shedding its first layer of skin.
like a snake? dots.
i got my eyes on this particular on from bonia since like ages ago.
but didnt have the time to purchase it?
i want to get a long-lasting one?
if not, i'll get pek chek every time it spoils.
like its a TOTAL WASTE OF MY MONEY!

so many movies i wanna catch!
stupid CT.
dance subaru, hannah montana.
well, its only 2. but still! anyone interested?
cant wait for CT to be OVER.
argh. then next will be ayg.
eeeeeeerrrrgggghhhh.
my hols are GONEEE.
sobs.


i saw the light in your eyes..

red;
is the colour of my laptop bag;
is the colour of my cushion cover;
is the colour of my red marker;
is the colour of my heart.

i dont know why but i'm stressing up again.
any suggestions on stress-relief?
i need my sleep. badly.
and i dont wanna go for anymore pracs!!!
i'm starting to dislike them.
my timetable is like the SPAM OF PRACS.
omg.
hahah.
i was exaggerating a little?
but seriously, 12 hrs of prac per week is murderous.

don't know why, but i'm kinda looking forward to this week.
even though i know it wouldnt guarantee me anything.
i need the right place, right time and right person.
magical if i could get what i want.
magic is not solid.
but, no harm wishing right?
even though wishes belong only to fairytales.


let me fall asleep into that dream again..

sally's been complaining about how dead my blog is.
hahaha.
she can really nag.
oh wells, i'm updating now.
i have common tests next week and the week after.
and i dont really like all the modules.
who wants to study? haha.
discipline!
btw, i finally kinda decided on wed that i wasn't going to go for famine camp this year.
sadded.
i would love to go.
but it wasn't meant to be.
timing clashed with exams.
i think everyone was GLAD i finally made up my mind.
i think i annoyed sally?
heehee. during dip plus.
opppps
i had to really think ma.
weigh the consequences and benefits.
conclusion: i am a fickle-minded person.
HAHAHA.
it felt as if i was choosing over a white or black top.
both colours were nice.
but which suited my skin tone the best?
hard to choose when you want both but can only pick one.
peeps that experienced shopping with me should be able to relate to this example?
hahahhaha.
GOOD NIGHT.
and SWEET DREAMS.


i've been dreaming of this someone
no wonder they say, dreams ain't reality.
but i dont mind....
really..

i know i haven't updated in a long time.
i've been kinda lazy and busy.
i have TONS of projects awaiting me.
OMG.
and they aren't the normal kind of projects..
sighs.
so busy like a beee..
i don't like bees. they sting.
HAHAHA.
oh. do go and take the quiz that i made.
on facebook.

i have no idea but i'm kinda into old songs nowadays.
don't ask me why.
okay, this is a sing i've been listening over and over again...
its a nice song.
you will fall in love with it once you hear the melody(:

Never Had A Dream Come True

by S Club 7

Everybody's got something
they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or might have been (or might have been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it should be now or might have been (or might have been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you...

so near yet so far...

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i was hypnotized and mesmerized..